LadyMalpirgi

What are the odds
 

It often wonders across my mind the things that some people do believe in. That cannot be seen or even felt but still have the power to capture peoples hearts.

God and for that matter his son, even though his wife somehow got left out of the picture and there is more proof she existed than his father. The Bible was pend by a non corporeal energetic entity, over the course of several generations by many (flawed, sinful) living people.

Any God or Goddess for that matter, from any pantheon or religion.

Aliens and visitations or even abductions by the little green men.

The Fates, Karma, Dharma or even Dogma.

Ghosts, Spirits and our ancestors still hover about us and interact with us in a physical way.

Reiki, Crystals, Aroma Therapy, sound and light therapy.

That there are magical, energized, holly or hollowed ground locations that somehow make us feel better. These locations being the homes of spirits, gods or mother earth herself.

That animals, plants or even us for that matter have a resident soul that goes home upon the death of the fleshly retreat.

That what we are (our personality) is somehow only located in the brain or the heart or somewhere in the floating soul, but not in all three. Not that any of those can be proven beyond a shadow of a doubt.

Vampire and Werewolves and Zombies (oh my..)

...And that brings me to Me.

Ya i can see how it is so very difficult to believe that a person may exist that simply needs to Drink the blood of another to remain healthy. Ever been bitten by a mosquito..?

Lastly I would like to introduce you to a brilliant man:
Carl Gustav Jung: Born July 26, 1875. died June 6, 1961.
He was a Swiss psychiatrist, an influential thinker and the founder of analytical psychology known as Jungian psychology and developed the term most relevant here Synchronicity.
Synchronicity is the experience of two or more events that are causally unrelated occurring together in a meaningful manner. To count as synchronicity, the events should be unlikely to occur together by chance.
What this means to us in easy to understand terms. If you were to take just one of the traits of a modern day Vampyre and consider, “what are the odds of this happening?”. Now consider two then even three of these traits happening to one person and how the odds of this happening starts to become astronomical; not the least of which is, what are the odds of all of these traits happening to not just one person but thousands of people around the world. Once you begin to wrap your mind around how very unlikely this is to happen at all then there is but one final truth. The person that has all of these traits IS just like all the other people who also have the very same traits. And if all the other people who have these astronomically unlikely traits call themselves Vampyres then well, you ARE one too.

If for some reason you cant wrap Your Mind around all that Ive said here.. then you may wish to ponder.. are you sure you have one.. it cant be proven that any of us do..

Lady Malpirgi
 

I have been so very busy lately, with sending out energy to bring new friends to me and it has paid in spades.
I am an Adra again!
A new friend that is going through her second breath and awakening has emerged from the shadows and has found me. I met with her recently and she comes from a location that she not only couldnt be what and who she is but, noone there to help her embrace herself. I hope to be everything she needs.
Also i want to send a welcome thought out to all my new internet friends. I do not take it lightly when people I admire reach out to me. I have met many people I admire.
My thankyou for the local community for accepting me into their circle.
I seem to be just dripping with good fortune latley.
I so seldom give thanks to the collective for the good fortune I receive. I would like this to be that thanks I send back for all to see just how very thankful I am. 
i have found an almost unsettling calm lately.

Lady Malpirgi Ramkht

It has taken me many years to come to some realizations of how I fit into the world. I understand who I am, as a Celtic Mystic Guardian my role there is very clear. As for what I am it has been a difficult journey. I understand why as a vampyre I must feed and the principles and methods and have even come to some conclusions as to how i fit into that community but untill receintly I have had one question escape me. Why am I what i am. I have found myself into the company of vampyre historians who gave me those answers. I have read perhaps a dozen different "reasons" that saposidly explain why we are what we are and where we come from. None of them made me feel whole like hearing the truth has done. Now that I am no longer an Adra, im free to explore my life and the direction it has taken me, and spend time with my new friends that have in no small fashion liberated me.
Lady Malpirgi Ramkht

I think many people misunderstand or underestimate the drive behind the hunger or what we affectionately call the beast. I think it is a primal drive like hunger for food or shelter or defence. Would anyone steal if they were truly starving. Would anyone break into an abandoned house if you were homeless and freezing to death. would anyone strike out at an attacker if your life was in the balance. Well the hunger has no less a drive but no easy way to just aquire either. If my theory of what causes the hunger is correct then it is a survival instinct to feed when a vampyre is energeticly depleated and the preditorial nature that comes of the seriously depleated is a responce to the how to get what we need to survive. We need human vital energy and to get it we must pursue a source of that energy... another living being. it is not wrong to want to survive, nature is not cruel when balance is the altimate goal. to live in harmony with all the creatures around us.

The Mystics did not, could not see

The years to come, the mystery

Becouse the darkness blocked the light

Disrupting the vision, keeping it from sight

A beast did, this way come

Tricked the many, but was seen by some

An angel was taken, stollen away, by the fallen ones

She had served the collective Faithfully

The ascension was near, the gates she could see

She wavered, she questioned the ancient wisdom

Left she was to live the curse of the Nephiliem

From the first day she was alive

Awoke with the hunger deep inside

She cried, she screamed, with her fists raised tword the sky

Tears fell until they in time did subside

Alone outside looking at the world through her Vampyre eyes

Will the angels still see her, will they she receive

Can she still dream of ascension, will they still, in her believe...

My senses rise scratching, welling up in me

As the sun falls from the curtain of night, I can finally see

I walk among them, humans, mundains, day walkers be

Shouldnt I know, shouldnt I be, in a state of harmony

They move about me, their minds washing over me

I feel it coursing, surging beneath the skin, their vitality

My heart quickens as the shroud descends

In a big world I am suddenly alone, as my breathing deepens

The hunger wells up inside me, it wants, it needs, to feed

The craving, burning, deep within me, like an ages old vengeful seed

It claws at the corners of my mind, it almost hurts, the painful need

I reach out to touch, but they are not there

Lost in my eyes, captivated by my stare

My fingers touch to feel the sweetness below ensnared

Like the sweetest ambrosia, a piece of a soul

To fill the void in me, like an aching whole

I feel not love, nor hate, nor sorrow

I am a predator, I am hungry, I am hollow

I reach into their energy coursing, my blood burning

To sate the need, the horrible yearning

It is cool, it is calming, their energy to me

The world is spinning, i am lost in the moment completely

The rush comes and washes over me, but still

I cannot stop, I cannot wake, till ive had my fill

My body it sleeps. my mind it races

The aching bleeds from me, their energy it erases

The beast in me fed, it returns to hide, the need it subsides

My mind returns to me, i open my eyes

The hunger, the burning gone, but for a day or three

But it will return once again, to rip my life from me

my guardian side was realy the only choice i had to wrap my mind around why i was so different from everyone else i knew when i was young. i was a spiritualist for many years as it was about the closest to non denominational in energy work as i could get. then i found a local wiccan group in my area and i fell quite literaly in with them but felt quickly i really was beyond anytthing they could teach me so i droped out and found the celtic Mystics that i spent every waiking moment with and as i flew up the ranks i was chosen by the council of my priests and priestesses to become the rarer still and coveted Guardian. a once in many life times opportunity. i stand today a full 3rd degree Celtic Mystic Guardian and teach classes to those who come looking for the answers i found. my group are the "Guardians of the flame"
it has taken me many years to come to any answers as to how to incorporate my Guardian side with my preditorial side. a daily struggle.

When i was 9 i was speaking with spirits, that later were confirmed as both my own spirit guides and family that had past. By age 10 I was astral projecting and jumping to locations i had never been, later confirmed by those that had been there. By age 11 I was doing touch healing and had a following of those that knew that when i touched them they felt better and their pain went away. By this time I was awair that when I touched other people I felt better and found places to do back rubs and such when i felt ill. By age 16 i was doing absentee healings and was confirmed by a nurse practicioner who was on the scene of a friend of mine waiting for an ambulance. The healing took place over the phone on the west coast though i live on the east. My first awakening happened around age 13 as a vampyre, i later received my second breath and awoke a fully awakened vampyre. I now feed pranicly twice a day or more as my energy work dictates and blood feed twice a month as the blood craving takes me.

I have created a new email adress just for LJ. My cell phone is my only portal onto the internet and does limit how long I can rant or answer questions here. My phone is a bit more forgiving in email where I may send longer replys. please reach me with any questions or comments to
LadyMalpirgi@gmail.com
I dont mind questions about my experiances as a hybrid Vampyre or to my Celtic Mystic Guardian side as I have over 20 years experiance in spiritualism and energy work.

Many of us allready beleave in past lives. It is my belief that as a soul gets older in lives it grows in energetic mass and has more energy available to it as a funtion of time and experiances behind it. I beleave this is why older souls feel more intencely present to those who are sensitive and awakened. This in time causes the soul to exceed the amout of energy that the body can host and control, but the soul still needs this energy to feel whole. in time energetic mass of the spirit causes the physical body to overload its ability to handle energy and burn out requiring over time the need to feed out side of its ability to regenerate to sustain itself, but more to the point to sustain the soul it self. So the need to feed is a survival responce that trickles down to the body as a preditorial instinct to hunt and aquire energy from the closest source, another living being for its vital living essance. This is what may cause Vampirism

Just wanted to say that I am open for questions for either Vampyre or Celtic Mystic. my posts are short becouse I have only my cell phone to connect and it doesnt allow me long rants but I check it all day and I am serious about writing back.

now that i have my mind back i wanted to post that it is my belief that there are 6 times a year that major Sabbats or energy gateways open. it is during these times ( Samhain- halloween) being just one of them, that our hunger gets worse.

so many lost souls out there looking for answers to what they see in the mirror, who am i, what am i. is it really that difficult to know deep down that what you sence may not be popular but is the only real answer beyond excepting someone elses truth.

as a celtic mystic i have had many students who have come looking for the secrets of the ages. as a fully awaikened Vampyre i have the instinct to hunt and feed but also to teach and not the least of which... to learn from others awaikened longer than i